Sunday, May 21, 2017

May, Twentieth, Two-Thousand and Seventeeen

Good Morning,

   Yesterday, 5.20.17, was quite the day. As most of you know, I work a roughly 65 hour week and am so exhausted that even the most exciting but laid back of things can wear me out. I managed to overdo it and threw my back out...again. So here I sit with ice on my back and the perfect time to write a couple of posts.

5.20.17 my sweet, amazing, strong, cheerful-even-in-pain, loving sister, Hannah, graduated HighSchool!! I couldn't be more proud of her. Though this is only one life event, and may not pose as "the" greatest thing in the world, it is to me. To watch each of my siblings learn and gain knowledge and graduate through the 12th grade with high grades and not drop out, IS a goal I am proud they accomplished. I didn't grab too many shots of the event but I am sure my Mum or even Hannah herself will post more about the event. I remember so clearly the day she was born. I had two brothers and I wanted a sister so badly. SHE brought out the girly side of me. She took up dancing and I wanted to dance too because I wanted to dance WITH her.  I became jealous of her so many times because she has such a gorgeous natural beauty and a flare for fashion I do not have. She didn't roar out in anger but spoke softly. She was and always will be our fairy princess.  I was the "tough girl" I took on the world but Always kept my eyes on my siblings. I fought with her, Loved her, and tried my best to protect her. When I left home....I left her. The pain she must have felt when her big sister left has always haunted me. I was shocked into an even bigger amount of hallow pain as I watched her simple, but elegant graduation and realized... I wasn't a huge part of their lives anymore, her life. I had my own life now. I always knew this would happen. We would each grow up, a little differently, move on (in my case and one of my brothers, to another state) and continue our lives. But the love I have for every. single. one of my three brothers and 4 sisters WILL never change. As the oldest it will always be my duty to be there for them, to support them, to encourage, to make them think, to hold them up, and even at times to scold in a loving way. Hannah has scolded me from time to time and at first my anger flares up, but I know I was in the wrong and apologize and love her even more deeply. Siblings have a bond no one else has. In our case we were all born and raised in a home with the same parents and homeschooled which means we saw each another 24/7. We weren't just siblings, but friends. I am so proud of her and want the best for her life. In one of my recent Instagram posts I used a hashtag #idtakeallthepainfromeachsiblingificould. This is truth. I would take it all if I could. One day when we die, God will take it all and she and all my siblings and everyone I love will no longer feel pain, sorrow, loneliness, will all be taken away.
I love you Hannah. I'm so proud of you.

Myself, Grammy Barbara, Hannah, Uncle Bill

Sisters <3 p="">

#Findjoy #Findpeace

I'll continue the rest of this day on another post. This one, is for my girl, my sister.


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